Observations from an Outsider

This week my boys are taking standardized tests at a local private school. We have our kids tested to make sure they are where they should be (we actually expect them to be above their grade level in most areas, but it's also good to see if they need some extra practice).

I have mixed feelings about sending the boys to a "real" classroom. They always have fun and the school we use is very nice to let us jump in and take the tests with their students. And I like that they get to see what school outside our home is like. But I am reminded of all the reasons we choose to homeschool. I also observe things that reinforce my beliefs in this area.

Sitting in the lobby waiting for the boys to finish up the days tests I observed kids going to lunch, the office, to other classes, and some just wondering about (high school age). I was struck by the expressions on most of their faces. Ninety percent of them weren't smiling; in fact most had no expression at all. I was shocked when I peaked in on Joshua at lunch and saw the same look on his face. I talked to him later and he said lunch was fine, but it was also very loud. Exactly what I thought, he wasn't comfortable. It made me wonder if the kids in the halls also feel uncomfortable. Would they have the same facial expressions if they were getting their schooling at home?

Another observation I had concerned moms who send their kids to school..how do they get it all done???? I'm struggling to get housework done and spend quality and quantity time with all my kids. I don't like having to rush my kids out the door in the morning. I feel like I'm constantly starting something only to have to stop and be a chauffeur.

My kids show up in our school room with whatever they want wear that day. Now they bring clothes to me and ask if it's OK to wear to school. That just makes me cringe. Worst of all, I miss them. They are only away for half the day and I feel like I miss so much. If they were there all day I would only see them a few hours at night. That is not the kind of life I want for me or for them.

I also struggle with the amount of reading that they are getting done this week. It's normal for my kids to spend 1-2 hours each day reading. I don't see how that could happen in a regular school setting. And I think it would be hard to get that amount of reading done in the evenings.

I did see a lot of positive things while observing. The teachers are amazing and most of the kids are very friendly. The school is obviously doing a good job. And I am thankful that they allow us to join them. But I am so thankful for our little school and the blessing of having my kids at home :)